Sometimes you need to step outside, get some fresh air, and
remind yourself who you are and who you want to be.
Here I am restarting again, yes again I said. However I wouldn't so much call ire restarting all together. I have been working on getting to my goal over a while now, and just recently remembered to put to use this great tool.
When I starting this journey forever ago, (feels like it) I was a whopping 198lbs. As of today I am at a still whopping 148lbs. Now yes it is in fact 50lbs lighter, which is nothing to sneer at. But I still have a long way to go.
The issue I seem to be coming across is that my bone structure is very small. So I am wearing a size 6 jeans. (Yes I said size 6, compared to the 16/18 I used to wear) But I still have a long way to go to get the body I really want. I have always wanted that body builder, sleek, toned look. Like below.
I would love to have a body like hers, add a lot more tattoos and more piercings and bam, me!! So I know I have the physical structure to be this kind of shape, it is just getting there that is taking a long time. I realize that soon I will have to stop with the scale, measure myself more instead. Because I do know that muscle weighs more than fat. Also base my progress on how well my clothes fit. Getting off my scale addiction will probably be a difficult thing for me, unless it is hidden from my sight.
Anyway, my progress is going well and I know I will get there. I just need to make sure to stick to it this time. Getting a gym membership, also trying to get a second job at Discover Card. They have a gym there with personal trainers you can use. It is only $20 a month, which for a full gym, with showers and classes isn't bad at all. I could use it right after work and get ready for my other job there as well. Now it is just a matter of eating clean. Which I am working on. It is a slow process as well, but it will get there in time. I found a cook book that I asked for Christmas from Santa. (AKA Mom) that is all really healthy clean meals, based on a website I use a lot. So with all these tools at my fingertips, this should be a breeze right? Oh I hope so! I am so tired of not being happy with my body and the way I look!
Well everyone, (all four of you reading this) until next time. Hopefully I can keep this up.
Night !
When I starting this journey forever ago, (feels like it) I was a whopping 198lbs. As of today I am at a still whopping 148lbs. Now yes it is in fact 50lbs lighter, which is nothing to sneer at. But I still have a long way to go.
The issue I seem to be coming across is that my bone structure is very small. So I am wearing a size 6 jeans. (Yes I said size 6, compared to the 16/18 I used to wear) But I still have a long way to go to get the body I really want. I have always wanted that body builder, sleek, toned look. Like below.
I would love to have a body like hers, add a lot more tattoos and more piercings and bam, me!! So I know I have the physical structure to be this kind of shape, it is just getting there that is taking a long time. I realize that soon I will have to stop with the scale, measure myself more instead. Because I do know that muscle weighs more than fat. Also base my progress on how well my clothes fit. Getting off my scale addiction will probably be a difficult thing for me, unless it is hidden from my sight.
Anyway, my progress is going well and I know I will get there. I just need to make sure to stick to it this time. Getting a gym membership, also trying to get a second job at Discover Card. They have a gym there with personal trainers you can use. It is only $20 a month, which for a full gym, with showers and classes isn't bad at all. I could use it right after work and get ready for my other job there as well. Now it is just a matter of eating clean. Which I am working on. It is a slow process as well, but it will get there in time. I found a cook book that I asked for Christmas from Santa. (AKA Mom) that is all really healthy clean meals, based on a website I use a lot. So with all these tools at my fingertips, this should be a breeze right? Oh I hope so! I am so tired of not being happy with my body and the way I look!
Well everyone, (all four of you reading this) until next time. Hopefully I can keep this up.
Night !
