Small changes can make a big difference!

I stop, restart, stop, restart and the cycle never seems to stop. But all I can really do is keep trying. I have all these cute clothes that I want to be able to wear, and right now I am stuck in over-sized t-shirts and jeans.

I hate it.

Since I came back from my trip to my hometown I have been trying to make small changes in my daily life. Not to over do it, hopefully the small things will make a difference in me keeping at it this time. I am trying to make healthier dinners on a budget. But when my meals are not as healthy as I hope, then I substitute a salad with a light dressing and eat a smaller portion.

I hope everyone has a great day!

"Here I go again on my own"

Fitting, since I feel like I am all alone in this world of fitness. I keep starting, doing well and then stopping. And I realize that if I just would stick to it at least one time I might just be at my goal, and wearing my VS swimming suit this summer. Instead of hiding behind my t-shirt with bathing suit.

But here is my new goal. I am going home to visit family in mid-August. Which means I have 59 days to drop 31 lbs. I can do it. I need to stick to a strict diet and a strict workout regime. Which is hard for me because my knee and ankle are hurting lately. But I really just need to look past it and do what I can.

I need to do a lot of research and find exactly what foods I need to eat and stay away from. It is hard for me because I bake goodies for a living. I am not a huge cake fan, but my sugar cookies are amazing and that is a really big temptation for me. I always have to make extra to give cookies and goodies to my children. I just need to learn a little self control. I will get there, just takes time.

My parents have a hot tub and I want to be able to get into it without feeling weird in a bathing suit. I might still wear a cover, but at least not feel so bad about it all. I want to be able to wear the clothes that I currently have in my closet to the house. Not be stuck in t-shirts and jeans all the time. Which is what I have been having to wear lately.

I can do this! I can get there!!!! Just give me time and sup

Day 1 (again)

"Old habits die hard. But they do die if you work at it!" 

I am sure this post title is a little confusing and yet not at all at the same time. Well let's be honest, I took a couple weeks off from posting, dieting and working out. Why? Well simply because I wanted to. I was doing well, and just felt a need to take some time to myself and not worry about anything else regarding diet or fitness related. I ate what I felt like eating and did what I wanted to do. 

What did I learn? A lot. 

I saw a huge shift in my energy levels, moods and overall well being. I felt horrid after some really fatty meals that left me bloated and gross. I felt oily and noticed a change in my skin again. Funny how such simple changes can make life so different. 

I was/am not getting a lot of sleep due to my 3 year old going through a separation issue, which never helps anything. I think that was also a big factor in taking time off. I needed to focus on figuring out what to do to solve the issue. And honestly I have yet to come up with a solution. 

But it is drawing near my 31st birthday and I want to be down another 10-15lbs before then. I want to enjoy my birthday, even though I will still be far off from my goal weight. So I decided to hope back on the bandwagon that I actually did enjoy and miss. Adding working out will be tough just like it was before, but I can do it. I did it once and lost 30lbs, (give or take 2lbs) and so I am sure I can do it again. 

I have planned meals for the next two weeks off a web site that has healthy meals, and a few not so healthy meals. But I figure that as long as I don't over eat that day and I don't over indulge myself then, I should be okay. Portion size has a lot to do with weight loss. 

Anyway, I am simply waiting for Jon to get up so I can take a short nap and then run and work out. I have two goals this coming year. (my birthday year, from June 2012 to June 2013) Next years birthday I want to go to on a fancy date with my husband. Symphony, something kind of fancy where I can dress up and feel good in a sexy kind of dress. I also want to run in some sort of race. Even if it is just a 5K, I will do it! 

Alright so here we go again! I hope you enjoy!!!!!

Remember any words of advice or encouragement are always welcome!!!

Day 53

"If you want it bad enough, you have to be willing to fight for it." 

Well I am back from my hiatus from being healthy. Not sure why this has taken so long for me to get back on, but I am back. I think I am just so busy from really trying to push my company and make it all work that I get lost. 

I totally gained weight from my trip, I wasn't terrible. But it wasn't easy to watch my eating while out of town living in a hotel room in a small town. So I decided to measure myself in a place I was recently measured to see if there were any changes, since I felt as though there was. Good news is I have lost 4 inches in my waist! YIPEE! I need to find a site that tells me exactly where to measure and keeps track of the inches for me. Seems those are a better way for me to keep an eye on my "weight loss" program anyway. Then try just weighing myself on Sundays. I have not started to work out again, mostly because since I have gotten back I have been sooo busy! Today after Jon gets up I am going to try to go work out for 25 minutes then run the errands I have to get done. 

I have another goal to set. I have family coming to visit on the 25th. That is 22 days to lose, hrm....how about 10 lbs? HA! I will say 7 lbs and then if I can get to 10 lbs that would be great! 

Anyway, I hope all of you are doing well and are having a great April so far! (Because I will have a fantastic one!) 

Lost

Okay so it has been a few days since I have posted, been crazy busy and trying to get life in order before my daughter heads to school. I am also doing really well, well better in my cake business so I am spending a long time focusing on that.

So tomorrow I am back on the work out wagon. I have not been eating the best either, so this week stayed strong at the 21.8 lbs lost.

I leave on Wednesday the 28th, so I made it to my 20lbs goal.

My next goal is April. Zoe comes to visit with her mom for a college graduation. I don't know exact dates, but will get those today and set another goal weight loss number for that time. I do know she will be here for Rya's birthday on the 18th. So I know I have at least 3.5 weeks. I also have a cake on the 12th, 16th and 18th, and a potential one on the 16th. So that week will be super busy!

My main thing for then is that my family will be here so I wanted to get some cute family pictures while feeling better about my physical appearance. So 15lbs to me seems like a reasonable request. 5lbs a week if I work really hard and stick to my program.

I might try running outside this week if the weather feels better. But I do enjoy checking out and watching something when I work out. But I hate having to change the speed or something along those lines while on there the whole time. We will see. Anyway, laundry to be done and cake organizing to get done as well.

Hope everyone has a fantastic day!

Day 38

Today I didn't get to work out, but worked hard around my house. Too sick... :(

Day 37/Rest Day

I guess you could say that the last couple days have been a rest day as far as working out goes. But I have been so busy with sick kids, cakes and now I am getting sick. :( However that didn't keep me from doing things around my house that made me work up a little sweat. And my core temp seems to be a lot higher than those people in my house. So when they turn on the heat I actually start to get so how that I get sweaty a little. Home made sauna!

I fear however that I am getting what my children currently have. I feel fine, but you know that feeling you have when you know you are about to get sick. Yeah well that is me. But I heard that working out when you are sick makes it go away faster because you are working your body, um...oh I dunno why. I just heard it okay!

Anyway, a lot more cleaning to do and laundry to get done.