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Okay so it has been a few days since I have posted, been crazy busy and trying to get life in order before my daughter heads to school. I am also doing really well, well better in my cake business so I am spending a long time focusing on that.

So tomorrow I am back on the work out wagon. I have not been eating the best either, so this week stayed strong at the 21.8 lbs lost.

I leave on Wednesday the 28th, so I made it to my 20lbs goal.

My next goal is April. Zoe comes to visit with her mom for a college graduation. I don't know exact dates, but will get those today and set another goal weight loss number for that time. I do know she will be here for Rya's birthday on the 18th. So I know I have at least 3.5 weeks. I also have a cake on the 12th, 16th and 18th, and a potential one on the 16th. So that week will be super busy!

My main thing for then is that my family will be here so I wanted to get some cute family pictures while feeling better about my physical appearance. So 15lbs to me seems like a reasonable request. 5lbs a week if I work really hard and stick to my program.

I might try running outside this week if the weather feels better. But I do enjoy checking out and watching something when I work out. But I hate having to change the speed or something along those lines while on there the whole time. We will see. Anyway, laundry to be done and cake organizing to get done as well.

Hope everyone has a fantastic day!

Day 38

Today I didn't get to work out, but worked hard around my house. Too sick... :(

Day 37/Rest Day

I guess you could say that the last couple days have been a rest day as far as working out goes. But I have been so busy with sick kids, cakes and now I am getting sick. :( However that didn't keep me from doing things around my house that made me work up a little sweat. And my core temp seems to be a lot higher than those people in my house. So when they turn on the heat I actually start to get so how that I get sweaty a little. Home made sauna!

I fear however that I am getting what my children currently have. I feel fine, but you know that feeling you have when you know you are about to get sick. Yeah well that is me. But I heard that working out when you are sick makes it go away faster because you are working your body, um...oh I dunno why. I just heard it okay!

Anyway, a lot more cleaning to do and laundry to get done.

Sick Kids and Cake

Okay so yesterday I never had a moment to go work out. Felt so strange. Today my daughter and son are both very sick and because of that I literally got about 45 minutes of sleep last night.

So today might not happen work out wise either. My daughter loses her mind when I leave the room for more than two minutes and I don't want to leave my husband with two cranky sick children, since I have a few different places to go today.

But just because I might not be able to work out, doesn't mean I can't stay on track.

I also have another cake to do tonight for a 2nd birthday tomorrow. So with baby shower/baby shower cake delivery, bridal fair with a bride, and a birthday cake to do tonight my day is pretty full. Which will keep me going and busy all day. Just wish I had a little more energy to do all this. Since I have not had any pop in forever, I don't want to go there either. So I will make do with water and clean foods.

Hope everyone has a great day today!!!

Day 34

"If you are tired of starting over, stop giving up!"

Today I couldn't run on the treadmill, there was a man there already. Running at 9.0 mph...yeah intimidating.

But I did 30 on the elliptical machine, I am excited because I realized today that all I am thinking about in the morning is, "When do I get to go work out?" Which is a change for me. Feels good instead of wondering when I get to go back to sleep. I still have issues with wanting late night snacks or just snacks in general. So I will keep working on that. I am 2 lbs away from my goal for the end of this month. Which I am so excited about.

Now I can set another goal. Another 5lbs before Rya's birthday, April 18th. I can do it! I am bound and determined to be fit and look good in clothes. It might take me a while, but I will freaking get there!

Have a lot of laundry to do today as well as some cakes to work on. YAY!

Hope everyone has a great Thursday!

Rest Day

Today is my rest day, and I am not sure how I like them. I feel out of sorts because I am not going to the gym today. I know I need them to make sure I don't burn out, but it still feels weird. Which is also a good feeling because then I know this is becoming habit and not just something I did or currently am doing.

I have a very busy couple of days ahead of me, so I need to make sure I stick with my diet. I have a couple of cakes due, good thing I don't care for cake that much. However I have to use Oreo's and another kind of mint cookies in them, which might become an issue. :)

I have been struggling the last couple days diet wise. I seem to be wanting to snack late at night and am not even hungry. I am not sure what it is about, but it is driving me nuts. I am going to try to get a handle on this and curb this last night snacking. We will see how that goes.

Day 32

"Skinny girls look good in clothes. Fit girls look good naked!"

This will be me someday!

Anyway, today was a fantastic work out day. I decided to try the treadmill to see how my feet did. Awesome news, I ran for 13 minutes straight at a speed of 4.2 mph. Okay I realize that isn't fast and won't seem like a big deal to most.

But for me....well that is amazing. For reals I have never done that before. I only stopped because my right knee was starting to go out a little. Just need to keep at it and build up the muscles. Then I waled for 4 minutes and ran for three minutes.

I felt great and am beyond proud of myself. I am bound and determined to do a half or full marathon someday. I will!!!!

Hope all of you have a great day!!!!

Day 31

"The will must be stronger than the skill."

I look like a total fool working out. Total fool. I don't have flawless form, I am all over the place on the treadmill and just flat out look ridiculous on the elliptical machine. But my skill doesn't determine my ability to do it or finish it. And if someone wants to look at me while working out and laugh...so what? Why should I care? The only people who matter in my life would support me, build me up and love the fact that I look like a fool working out.

30 minutes on the elliptical machine, 2.67 miles. My issues still seems to be my shoes/feet. Who knows if that will ever change!

Hope you all have a great day!

Rest Day/Cheat Day

Today is my rest day, which is weird but okay. Today was daylight savings day so it was strange waking up and not sure 100% what time it was.

Anyway, have some cookies and laundry to finish today and send out this week.

My cheat meal is Taco Soup! YES SOOOOO GOOD! With chips and cheese and sour cream. But I will be working my ass off this week to make sure it doesn't stick around. LOL

Have a great everyone!

Day 29

"Passion, pushing yourself when no one else is around."

That was me this morning, I was tired and sleepy and just pushed myself through my work out. But I did 30 minutes on the elliptical machine and managed 2.73 miles. Pretty good.

I am exhausted, but have to run to the store for a few things.

Hope everyone has a good weekend!

Day 28

"You are just one work out away from a good mood."

Okay this morning was exhausting, I was annoyed in all directions and anticipating some good news. However just have yet to hear anything about this news, so that didn't help my mood.

But I went and worked out for 30 minutes and worked hard! I realized something my only issue now with working out is my shoes. My feet go numb in them after about 10 minutes, and I realize that I need new work out shoes. But my issue with that is, I don't want to spend money on something that won't work. So I really need to do some research on shoes that will be supportive and comfy for me. Might take me a while to find the right pair, but I will get there.

All in all I went and worked out and feel a little better. Still no news, but aside from that I am pretty happy. Shower time and then getting work done around the house. As well as a dozen cookies to send off.

Have a great day everyone!

Day 27!

"Patience. I will become what I know I am!"

I need to learn this virtue, I need to embrace it, I need to become it. As far as fitness is concerned I have no patience. I weigh myself on a almost 3 times a day basis. Why? I am totally addicted. But if this is my only addiction currently, I feel like I am safe at dealing with it for a while.

Today, yes today, I did 30 minutes on the elliptical machine. But wait, there's more, 2.53 miles at my highest speed was 7.1 mph. Okay for me who is used to 25 minutes at a max speed of 4.3 mph....that is freaking impressive. (to me anyway)

And during those 30 minutes I never once thought, "I can't do this, I won't make it." I literally just kept going and at one point started chanting random stuff about bathing suits and summer and looking hot!

All in all I feel really good today. I have a lot on my plate today and am going to get going.

Feel free to leave words of encouragement, I always need them!!!

<3 Everyone!!!

Rest Day

So today is my rest day, and I have to admit I am not thrilled about it. I should go work out.

Yesterday was kind of an overall crummy day throughout the day. Then we received some good news that made the day end on a somewhat high note.

With the kids exhausting all of the life out of me, I just decided to run some errands and maybe pick up some dinner for them. Well we ended up eating at a local BBQ place that I love.

I won't describe my dinner, but it wasn't the best of ideas. I felt like crap leaving the restaurant. My gut felt overwhelmed, my face and hands felt greasy. And I felt this overwhelming guilt for some reason.

Needless to say I was very unhappy for the evening. But I made that mistake and today is a new day. I won't work out, but cleaning my house is always work enough for me. I always seem to come out of it drenched in sweat. (gross I know) But hey it is a small work out one way or another.

I also have some sugar cookies to make and ship to CA this afternoon. So lots of work ahead of me.

Enjoy your day everyone!

Day 25

"No, your legs are not that tired. Yes, you can breathe. Keep going."

Only 25 minutes on the elliptical machine this morning. I woke up in the most severe pain, neck pain, back pain. All from the awkward ways I slept last night. I couldn't fall asleep until 2am and was up and down all night long. Just felt weird last night. I figured I actually went to work out after a long night and being in pain. That is impressive enough.

Have a lot to do today, so I need to get started. But it will be a good day if I can get past this pain. Might take a hot bath to relax my muscles.

Have a great day!

Day 24

"Don't complain about being fat if you are not going to do anything about it!"

This morning I kicked royal ass, not just average ass, but royal ass! My children slept well, I slept well, and was ready to work out and get it going on my work out. I did 28 minutes on the elliptical machine and it felt awesome, I was still working hard up until the very last minute. It was just a good intense work out.

Below is a picture of a female fitness model. In researching her, I have come to realize that her body type is just like me. Except for the obvious differences. Anyway, someday in the very distant future I would like to look, or least feel like I look similar.

Today is all about laundry and cleaning my room and bathroom. Then eating some more healthy foods!!!! Go me!!!!

Day 23

Today is a rest and cheat day

Very very tired, and not feeling 100% up to par. Going to get a lot of laundry and cleaning done today so we can start the week off on the right foot.

My cheat meal for the day is Chicken Curry with Rice. I will still use brown rice, and it has potatoes and carrots. So good!

I have a lot more weight to lose before I hit my goal for the end of March. So this week coming up I am gong to attempt to add weights in at night. And work out for 30 cardio minutes on my work out days. And my eating has got to be spot on. I am going to go to Sam's Club today to get a big pack of desert gum. It is an easy way for me to curb cravings and I don't get a lot of calories for it.

I realize the later I stay up the more likely I am to snack on all sorts of things. So I am going to also try to get to bed at a somewhat decent time. Also getting a measuring tape today, I would actually like to keep track of my measurements from now on.

Anyway, that is all for now. Hope everyone has a great day!

Day 22

"If you have time to facebook, you have time to work out!"

Oh dear God, how true is this! I used to say all the time that I never have time and that it is hard. I mean don't get me wrong, it is hard. Very hard. But I have time to plop my fat ass on a chair and mess around on facebook for a significant amount of time. I have time to ask my husband to watch my children for 25-30 minutes while I work out.

I did only 25 minutes today for a multitude of reasons. I have a GIANT list of things to get done today.

Yesterday, well yesterday was int the past. What happened yesterday shouldn't affect my ability to do my workout today, or eat healthy.

On pinterest this last week I saw a picture that really spoke to me. It is very significant to me because it shows what my body looks inside and what I am doing to my joints and bones and muscles.

Check it out here!

I will look good, I will be happy and I will be comfortable in my own skin damn it! This time next year I won't be unhappy that I didn't do anything. I will be so ecstatic that I got off my ass got into shape!

I CAN DO THIS, I WILL DO THIS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Day 20

"Sweat is fat crying!"

Wasn't sure how this morning would go. Long night. But I did 28 minutes on the elliptical and it felt great afterwards. I am going to slowly work up to 30 minutes and then stick to the time for a while.

Today is just a crazy day and I don't have a ton to talk about. Just hoping it goes by well and I am able to get to tomorrow just fine.