Day 19 - Rest Day

I know you might think I missed entering info today, but I didn't.

Today is my rest day.

And for a rest day it was crazy busy!!!! Rya had class, I had group and then she had her evaluation to see what preschool programs she qualifies for. That took forever! I know she will qualify for them since she is so low still on her abilities. I mean she is very advanced/high functioning for her disability. But she still needs a lot of help!

Anyway, since it was so crazy I totally forgot to eat breakfast and didn't get around to lunch until probably 3:00pm! I know that is bad for a healthy lifestyle, but sometimes that is a part of life as a mom.

Best part of today, made some strawberry lemonade cupcakes for my group. I didn't have one of them. (I am not a huge fan of cake, even though I do it for a living. But these are awesome!) Then we went to McDonalds for the kids dinner because we had a lot of errands to run. We got them nugget meals and hubby got a drink and cheeseburger. And me? Why I didn't get anything!

YAY! McDonalds is one of my big weaknesses! So that is a celebratory thing for me.

Tomorrow back on the workout wagon until Sunday, my next rest day!

Thanks for reading! Remember encouraging words are always welcome!

Day 18

"Make your supports proud and your haters jealous!"

I don't think I am cool enough to have haters. HA! But I know I have supporters and I am hoping I make them proud of me.

Today was pretty easy to be honest. I did get a late start because of two children who decided to scream until 3am. So after both parents were able to get some rest, went to the gym.

Now last night amidst my fight with my screaming children, I slammed my little toe into the wall. 99.9% sure it is broken. Has a weird red purple bruise filling in nicely as well as some lovely swelling. However I didn't let that stop me. I figured I would go to the gym and if I couldn't do the elliptical machine then I would do the bike. But all 27 minutes on the elliptical and sure seemed easy this time. It might have helped that I was watching the combine on ESPN and got to see Rich Eisen run the 40. HA!

Anyway feeling pretty good about today so far. Lunch a chicken salad and dinner, chicken, brown rice and veggies.

Way to go me!

Day 17

"It never get easier, you just get better at it!"

Today is a good day. (Or I thought it was, as we speak both of my children are screaming at me.)

Anyway, got up and went to work out. About 10 minutes into it I was super tired! (I slept terrible last night) And my mind kept saying, you have done so well, you can just stop now. Then I decided to tell myself to shut up. I just shut that part of my brain up...got lost in Will & Grace and ignored that part of my brain. The next thing I knew, I was done! 27 minutes later and I felt great.

I have so much to do today and know I can get it all done. Just need to buckle down and get on it!

Thanks for reading! However if you are reading this, please feel free to leave me a comment. I really need and love getting words of encouragement. It helps me progress forward and keep at it.

Cheat Night

Tonight was my cheat meal...I was totally planning on making taco soup. Sadly the kids were getting a little exhausting and needed to get out of the house. When I realized that we were in the car in another town and it was dinner time.

So we went to Texas Roadhouse. If given the opportunity I would eat well made steak everyday for the remainder of my days.

My old normal steakhouse routine:

Couple of alcoholic drinks/sodas

Appetizer/salad with a ton of dressing

Rolls with honey butter

More drinks

Steak, rare, 8-16oz (with all of it eaten) or Prime Rib, (as large as I can get)

French fries or potatoes for a side and maybe a veggie (loaded)

Yuck, reading that makes me kind of sick.

This cheat meal routine:

Water, LOTS of water

11oz Sirlion, rare (under half eaten, brought home for Jon to eat at breakfast)

Half mashed potatoes (plain, no gravy, cheese, butter, nothing)

I ordered green beans, but they brought them with all sorts of stuff on it. Bacon, butter, tons of salt and floating in some sort of liquid. I decided that since I didn't know what it as, I would just avoid it.

Now here is where my *over done it* cheat came to play....

Rolls. And. Honey. Butter.

Okay okay, I had two of them, they were sooooooo good! I figured I would just enjoy myself since I really have been dong as well as I would like myself to currently. And I did...I sure did.

But so happy I didn't have anything else to drink but water. I love water, cold and so refreshing! I have not had a pop/soda in over 2 weeks! This is an impressive step for me! And I will admit it, I am proud of myself.

Anyway, not a terrible cheat and not a diet meal. Just sort of in the middle.

Night!!!!

Day 16

"Good habits are as addictive as bad habits, and a lot more rewarding!"

Today is my rest day/cheat meal day. So I didn't get up and go work out so far. Even though in all honesty I kind of wanted to. Not so much to work out, but to be able to check out for 30 minutes. But I know if I did that I would burn out like I have in the past. But tomorrow I really think I am going to actually add a second work out. Not sure if it will be lifting weights or just cardio again. Either way, I think it will be good for me to get something done at night.

I am still on my way to my goal for the end of the month. I would really like to be down another 10 lbs before I leave for Idaho Falls. I can do it! I can do it! I can do it!

Hope everyone has a wonderful Sunday!!!

Day 15

"You can have results or you can have excuses. You can't have both."

Halfway through my workout this morning I thought of a million reasons to stop. I have a lot to get done today, needed to get going. I have done so well lately, it wouldn't be bad if I stopped. My feet hurt, neck hurt, back hurt...all that junk. However, for the first time in my life, (sad I know) I kept at it. I started chanting "You can do it!" over and over. Luckily I work out in our community center and usually I am the only one there when I am working out.

So I finished 27 minutes on the elliptical machine. Which is what I set the timer for anyway, so I finished it!

Today we *do* have a lot to do, so it is important that I stick to my healthy eating. Small steaks for dinner. Lunch will be the hard part for me since we will be in Park City.

So have a great day everyone!!!

*EDIT*

We went to McDonalds for lunch today because we had to meet up with someone. I had a grilled chicken salad, water and a ranch packet that I dipped my fork into. Instead of covering the salad like I used to!

FAIL

But it is okay....had a terrible morning.

Decided to stop potty training my daughter today based on a conversation I had with one of her special therapy doctors. The doing all there other crazy stuff that mom's do for their families in a day. It was just overwhelming and exhausting. So I forced my husband, (Jon) to take me to lunch.

I was planning on a healthy location, (well as healthy as eating out can get) a placed called Zupas. Soups, salads and sandwiches. But it was packed! So we headed to Chili's.

I know, I know. Gross.

Pretty sure I consumed about a month worth of salt in the chips and queso. I had their shrimp tacos. Not the worst thing to eat there, but not the best in the world either. I drank water I brought and ate two of the tacos. I have one left over for a snack if I get hungry. :) Since I won't be hungry for actual dinner.

But like I have said in the (very recent) past, just because I failed now, doesn't mean I will fail tomorrow. So here goes nothing...

Day 14

"You can feel sore tomorrow, or you can feel sorry tomorrow. You choose"

Today was a little harder this morning working out. But I finished the 25 minutes, looking forward to Sunday for my rest day!

Today I woke up with a feeling that most females call, "skinny day". That day when you are not bloated and you just feel good. You feel a tiny bit smaller than the day before. I LOVE those days!

Feeling good and feeling stronger. I am getting there, one day at a time and one pound at a time!

Long day ahead of me with a lot to do!

(Remember all the helpful words I can get the better! I need them!)

Day 13

"If you don't work for it, you probably don't deserve it."

Oh so true. I worked for my fattness...I ate junk food and drank a lot of sugar! I earned that extra weight. Now I have to earn the body I want to have.

Went to the gym today and did 25 minutes on the elliptical machine. There were a few moments where I thought I would give up before the 25 minutes was done. I kept telling myself I only had time left and I could do it. So I finished, and was very proud of myself.

Had some yogurt for breakfast and lunch will be a salad with shrimp. (SO GOOD) Then dinner will be chicken, veggies and brown rice.

Cajun Chicken Pasta on the Lighter Side

Although I have not tired her food that much, it all looks amazing! This is something I am wanting to try when I reach my first weight loss goal:

Cajun Chicken Pasta

Day 11

"How many times have you tried to lose weight? If you wouldn't

have quit, you'd already be at your goal weight!"

With the amount of times I have started and stopped I would have a freaking 8 pack by now! This time I have to keep at it. I went through a phase where I lost 20lbs and was doing all the right things. And then I got super super sick and fell off the wagon in a way. I can only imagine where I would be now if I would have just jumped back on the wagon after I got healthy. But I can't really play the what-if game, just need to focus on the now.

My goal: Wear a pencil skirt the way it was intended to be worn. I own a couple of them. Just don't wear them how they were meant to be worn. I will get there damn it!

Went grocery shopping for two weeks yesterday. Lots of brown rice and chicken and shrimp. With two cheat meals, taco soup and curry chicken on Sundays. And let me say I will enjoy those!

Thanks for reading, and remember words of encouragement and advice are invited. I need as much support as I can get!

Day 8

So day 7 was a fail, but that is okay. Today was a check so far....have not had lunch yet so need to get on that.

Otherwise adding in weights tonight and then some protein after that.

Sorry so quick, don't have a ton of time!!!

Cheat Night

Okay so it is cheat night right now, homemade burgers and potatoes. Also we have game night tonight and we are having some chips. But since I felt like I chowed down on burgers too much I would just leave the chips out.

We will see....ugg this is so stressful!

Day 6

"Suck it up and someday you won't have to suck it in!"

Oh man, can I tell you how much I needed that statement this morning. After day two of a 5:30 wake up call fro my son, my energy level was beyond low. But I eventually got out there and did my 25, (yes only 25 minutes today) minutes. I had to repeat this mantra in my mind while on the elliptical machine so I wouldn't give up before the 25 minutes.

Since I know I will reach my goal of 10lbs before March 31st for the baby shower. I want to step it up a little. If I reach 20lbs by then, I will allow myself the whole weekend I am down there off my "diet"! WOOO-HOOO! My littler sister and I are planning the baby shower, so I know what food will be there!!!

Yippeee! Got to run and get my errands done! Have a fantastic day everyone!

Cilantro Lime Shrimp

I decided to add recipes that I find that I enjoy and are healthy for you! We love seafood in this house and so I discovered this dish Cilantro Lime Chicken! It was amazing!

Actually making it again tonight since we enjoyed it so much.

Give it a try!

Day 5

"Six months from now you won't remember how those cookies tasted. But six months from now you will be able to see results!"

Okay I need to either tattoo this on my arm or just adapt it as my new mantra. Yesterday being Valentine's Day I believe we all see it as "sweets day". I have to be happy that I am not a huge sweets fan or baked goods. (I know, I know, I make designer cakes for a living, weird.) But for me my sweet tooth isn't that big at all, if really there. I think my favorite sweets are fruit. But I do love salt water taffy. With that being said I was at the grocery store yesterday with my family. On my way to the register I grabbed a white paper bag and stuffed a few handfuls of salt water taffy into the bag. As I got to the register it dawned on me what I was actually doing. So with that I put the bag on some random shelf by the register, and proceeded to check out.

YAY for me! While this may seem trivial to everyone else, this was/is a huge triumph for me. And last night I found myself dying for anything. I was so munchie!!! I wanted a sandwich, nothing fancy, two slices of bread, mayo and some thin slices of lunch meat. It haunted me....but I had an orange instead. Another huge step for me!!!

Well today is my rest day, so already starting on a weird step. I realize it has only been a few days of working out. But I take it as a good sign when it feels strange to not head to the gym this morning. (Doesn't help that my son was up at 5:30am and then shortly after my daughter.) Tomorrow we incorporate weights at night. Time to do some research on what is best to do for my body. Then we will go form there.

Thanks for stopping by, and remember words of encouragement are highly encouraged! (Ha! Did you see what I did there? Yeah.....maybe I should go back to bed.)

Day 4

"Never give up on something you can't go a day without thinking about!"

Oh my goodness does this speak volumes to me! I literally think every day, almost every second about how unhappy I am with my body! I hate that I wear a t-shirt and jeans all the time, and a sweatshirt every time I go out. In a simple, yet obvious attempt at hiding my current shape. I would eat because I was unhappy, it was all a sick vicious cycle.

But I am so done with that! I will achieve my goal, I will fit into my goal outfit. I will be able to wear the Victoria's Secret bathing suit I bought. (not this summer, but next maybe) I will not be ashamed and wear cute clothes out and about. I deserve this!

If I keep telling myself I can do this and this quote above I will be successful.

This morning I did 30 minutes total. 10 minutes on the treadmill and 20 on the elliptical! 5 minute improvement. Tomorrow is my rest day, but Thursday I will be adding weights on at night. I need to do some research on this so I make sure I am doing it correct. I don't want to just be skinnier, I want to be toned and look good!!!

And remember, encouraging words are helpful and important to me!

Day 3

"I may not be there yet, but I'm closer than I was yesterday!"

Man don't I know it! Day 3 of working out everyday and already feeling a change. Maybe it is just in my attitude and energy level, but I will take it.

I don't seem to be having soda/pop issues at all. I think because I am so busy during the day that it isn't a thought that really crosses my mind. And no fast food issues, mostly because I just have not had time either. But I feel strong and positive that when/if I face that factor I can beat it down.

Scale wise? Hrm, let's just say that of all my addictions I find this to be the least bad one not be able to let go. I realize weighing myself everyday, (okay probably a couple of time) is pretty much an inevitable let down. But at least I know this right? I am working on it.

I am thinking I need at least one rest day this week, or at least once a week. Figured it could be Wednesdays. Then in a week or sooner I will incorporate weights. Not a lot, since I am still starting out slow. I will cardio mornings and weights at nights.

I will be at least 10 lbs down by the time I go to Idaho Falls to see family for a baby shower. I am determined to do this. End of March is my deadline for that 10 lbs. Then I can at least take that shower day and enjoy the stuff that we will be making for the shower. That will be my reward for the 10lbs. Then after that, back to the plan.

So far anyway, I feel good and feel motivated. Time to get some work done around my house.

Please feel free to leave me a comment, I really need the encouragement!

Day 2

"Stop competing with others and start competing with yourself."

This is sooo true. I have to stop comparing myself and my abilities to other people. Especially people who look far better than my current physical state.

My three current demons are Fast Food, The Scale and Pop/Soda. And when combined they make a sometimes fatal, (to my pour soul) combo. So I plan on weighing myself on Saturdays and Saturdays only. (We will see how that goes, and no hiding the scale doesn't work for me)
Fast Food, well just don't eat it, ask my family to avoid it as well. Which saves us money and calories.

Pop/Soda, if I don't purchase it, I can't drink it. I do currently have a couple of dying 2 liters in my fridge. And when I get one of *those* headaches I will just pop and Excedrin and take a sip of that.

All in all I feel like I just got to keep at it. When I get more organized and so forth, I plan on using fitday.com to track calories and work outs.

Thanks for stopping by, please leave a word or two of encouragement if you can!!! Thanks!!!

Day 1

"No matter how slow you go, you are still lapping everyone on the couch!"

That is going to be my inspiration for my day and coming week. I stepped on the scale last night and was about to die/cry from the sheer disappointment I have in myself for the number that appeared.

So there isn't much to say aside from the fact that I have to change. Period, end of statement.

So today I went to the "gym" this morning, (our community work out center) and did 25 minutes on the elliptical machine. Which for me is a step in the right direction. I have to start somewhere. Eventually I will get around to posting about food. But for me I realized it really is a day at a time. And this time next year I don't want to be 20 pounds heavier and wishing I did something last year.

So I am off for my day and hopefully tomorrow will be a little bit easier.