Small changes can make a big difference!

I stop, restart, stop, restart and the cycle never seems to stop. But all I can really do is keep trying. I have all these cute clothes that I want to be able to wear, and right now I am stuck in over-sized t-shirts and jeans.

I hate it.

Since I came back from my trip to my hometown I have been trying to make small changes in my daily life. Not to over do it, hopefully the small things will make a difference in me keeping at it this time. I am trying to make healthier dinners on a budget. But when my meals are not as healthy as I hope, then I substitute a salad with a light dressing and eat a smaller portion.

I hope everyone has a great day!

"Here I go again on my own"

Fitting, since I feel like I am all alone in this world of fitness. I keep starting, doing well and then stopping. And I realize that if I just would stick to it at least one time I might just be at my goal, and wearing my VS swimming suit this summer. Instead of hiding behind my t-shirt with bathing suit.

But here is my new goal. I am going home to visit family in mid-August. Which means I have 59 days to drop 31 lbs. I can do it. I need to stick to a strict diet and a strict workout regime. Which is hard for me because my knee and ankle are hurting lately. But I really just need to look past it and do what I can.

I need to do a lot of research and find exactly what foods I need to eat and stay away from. It is hard for me because I bake goodies for a living. I am not a huge cake fan, but my sugar cookies are amazing and that is a really big temptation for me. I always have to make extra to give cookies and goodies to my children. I just need to learn a little self control. I will get there, just takes time.

My parents have a hot tub and I want to be able to get into it without feeling weird in a bathing suit. I might still wear a cover, but at least not feel so bad about it all. I want to be able to wear the clothes that I currently have in my closet to the house. Not be stuck in t-shirts and jeans all the time. Which is what I have been having to wear lately.

I can do this! I can get there!!!! Just give me time and sup

Day 1 (again)

"Old habits die hard. But they do die if you work at it!" 

I am sure this post title is a little confusing and yet not at all at the same time. Well let's be honest, I took a couple weeks off from posting, dieting and working out. Why? Well simply because I wanted to. I was doing well, and just felt a need to take some time to myself and not worry about anything else regarding diet or fitness related. I ate what I felt like eating and did what I wanted to do. 

What did I learn? A lot. 

I saw a huge shift in my energy levels, moods and overall well being. I felt horrid after some really fatty meals that left me bloated and gross. I felt oily and noticed a change in my skin again. Funny how such simple changes can make life so different. 

I was/am not getting a lot of sleep due to my 3 year old going through a separation issue, which never helps anything. I think that was also a big factor in taking time off. I needed to focus on figuring out what to do to solve the issue. And honestly I have yet to come up with a solution. 

But it is drawing near my 31st birthday and I want to be down another 10-15lbs before then. I want to enjoy my birthday, even though I will still be far off from my goal weight. So I decided to hope back on the bandwagon that I actually did enjoy and miss. Adding working out will be tough just like it was before, but I can do it. I did it once and lost 30lbs, (give or take 2lbs) and so I am sure I can do it again. 

I have planned meals for the next two weeks off a web site that has healthy meals, and a few not so healthy meals. But I figure that as long as I don't over eat that day and I don't over indulge myself then, I should be okay. Portion size has a lot to do with weight loss. 

Anyway, I am simply waiting for Jon to get up so I can take a short nap and then run and work out. I have two goals this coming year. (my birthday year, from June 2012 to June 2013) Next years birthday I want to go to on a fancy date with my husband. Symphony, something kind of fancy where I can dress up and feel good in a sexy kind of dress. I also want to run in some sort of race. Even if it is just a 5K, I will do it! 

Alright so here we go again! I hope you enjoy!!!!!

Remember any words of advice or encouragement are always welcome!!!

Day 53

"If you want it bad enough, you have to be willing to fight for it." 

Well I am back from my hiatus from being healthy. Not sure why this has taken so long for me to get back on, but I am back. I think I am just so busy from really trying to push my company and make it all work that I get lost. 

I totally gained weight from my trip, I wasn't terrible. But it wasn't easy to watch my eating while out of town living in a hotel room in a small town. So I decided to measure myself in a place I was recently measured to see if there were any changes, since I felt as though there was. Good news is I have lost 4 inches in my waist! YIPEE! I need to find a site that tells me exactly where to measure and keeps track of the inches for me. Seems those are a better way for me to keep an eye on my "weight loss" program anyway. Then try just weighing myself on Sundays. I have not started to work out again, mostly because since I have gotten back I have been sooo busy! Today after Jon gets up I am going to try to go work out for 25 minutes then run the errands I have to get done. 

I have another goal to set. I have family coming to visit on the 25th. That is 22 days to lose, hrm....how about 10 lbs? HA! I will say 7 lbs and then if I can get to 10 lbs that would be great! 

Anyway, I hope all of you are doing well and are having a great April so far! (Because I will have a fantastic one!) 

Lost

Okay so it has been a few days since I have posted, been crazy busy and trying to get life in order before my daughter heads to school. I am also doing really well, well better in my cake business so I am spending a long time focusing on that.

So tomorrow I am back on the work out wagon. I have not been eating the best either, so this week stayed strong at the 21.8 lbs lost.

I leave on Wednesday the 28th, so I made it to my 20lbs goal.

My next goal is April. Zoe comes to visit with her mom for a college graduation. I don't know exact dates, but will get those today and set another goal weight loss number for that time. I do know she will be here for Rya's birthday on the 18th. So I know I have at least 3.5 weeks. I also have a cake on the 12th, 16th and 18th, and a potential one on the 16th. So that week will be super busy!

My main thing for then is that my family will be here so I wanted to get some cute family pictures while feeling better about my physical appearance. So 15lbs to me seems like a reasonable request. 5lbs a week if I work really hard and stick to my program.

I might try running outside this week if the weather feels better. But I do enjoy checking out and watching something when I work out. But I hate having to change the speed or something along those lines while on there the whole time. We will see. Anyway, laundry to be done and cake organizing to get done as well.

Hope everyone has a fantastic day!

Day 38

Today I didn't get to work out, but worked hard around my house. Too sick... :(

Day 37/Rest Day

I guess you could say that the last couple days have been a rest day as far as working out goes. But I have been so busy with sick kids, cakes and now I am getting sick. :( However that didn't keep me from doing things around my house that made me work up a little sweat. And my core temp seems to be a lot higher than those people in my house. So when they turn on the heat I actually start to get so how that I get sweaty a little. Home made sauna!

I fear however that I am getting what my children currently have. I feel fine, but you know that feeling you have when you know you are about to get sick. Yeah well that is me. But I heard that working out when you are sick makes it go away faster because you are working your body, um...oh I dunno why. I just heard it okay!

Anyway, a lot more cleaning to do and laundry to get done.

Sick Kids and Cake

Okay so yesterday I never had a moment to go work out. Felt so strange. Today my daughter and son are both very sick and because of that I literally got about 45 minutes of sleep last night.

So today might not happen work out wise either. My daughter loses her mind when I leave the room for more than two minutes and I don't want to leave my husband with two cranky sick children, since I have a few different places to go today.

But just because I might not be able to work out, doesn't mean I can't stay on track.

I also have another cake to do tonight for a 2nd birthday tomorrow. So with baby shower/baby shower cake delivery, bridal fair with a bride, and a birthday cake to do tonight my day is pretty full. Which will keep me going and busy all day. Just wish I had a little more energy to do all this. Since I have not had any pop in forever, I don't want to go there either. So I will make do with water and clean foods.

Hope everyone has a great day today!!!

Day 34

"If you are tired of starting over, stop giving up!"

Today I couldn't run on the treadmill, there was a man there already. Running at 9.0 mph...yeah intimidating.

But I did 30 on the elliptical machine, I am excited because I realized today that all I am thinking about in the morning is, "When do I get to go work out?" Which is a change for me. Feels good instead of wondering when I get to go back to sleep. I still have issues with wanting late night snacks or just snacks in general. So I will keep working on that. I am 2 lbs away from my goal for the end of this month. Which I am so excited about.

Now I can set another goal. Another 5lbs before Rya's birthday, April 18th. I can do it! I am bound and determined to be fit and look good in clothes. It might take me a while, but I will freaking get there!

Have a lot of laundry to do today as well as some cakes to work on. YAY!

Hope everyone has a great Thursday!

Rest Day

Today is my rest day, and I am not sure how I like them. I feel out of sorts because I am not going to the gym today. I know I need them to make sure I don't burn out, but it still feels weird. Which is also a good feeling because then I know this is becoming habit and not just something I did or currently am doing.

I have a very busy couple of days ahead of me, so I need to make sure I stick with my diet. I have a couple of cakes due, good thing I don't care for cake that much. However I have to use Oreo's and another kind of mint cookies in them, which might become an issue. :)

I have been struggling the last couple days diet wise. I seem to be wanting to snack late at night and am not even hungry. I am not sure what it is about, but it is driving me nuts. I am going to try to get a handle on this and curb this last night snacking. We will see how that goes.

Day 32

"Skinny girls look good in clothes. Fit girls look good naked!"

This will be me someday!

Anyway, today was a fantastic work out day. I decided to try the treadmill to see how my feet did. Awesome news, I ran for 13 minutes straight at a speed of 4.2 mph. Okay I realize that isn't fast and won't seem like a big deal to most.

But for me....well that is amazing. For reals I have never done that before. I only stopped because my right knee was starting to go out a little. Just need to keep at it and build up the muscles. Then I waled for 4 minutes and ran for three minutes.

I felt great and am beyond proud of myself. I am bound and determined to do a half or full marathon someday. I will!!!!

Hope all of you have a great day!!!!

Day 31

"The will must be stronger than the skill."

I look like a total fool working out. Total fool. I don't have flawless form, I am all over the place on the treadmill and just flat out look ridiculous on the elliptical machine. But my skill doesn't determine my ability to do it or finish it. And if someone wants to look at me while working out and laugh...so what? Why should I care? The only people who matter in my life would support me, build me up and love the fact that I look like a fool working out.

30 minutes on the elliptical machine, 2.67 miles. My issues still seems to be my shoes/feet. Who knows if that will ever change!

Hope you all have a great day!

Rest Day/Cheat Day

Today is my rest day, which is weird but okay. Today was daylight savings day so it was strange waking up and not sure 100% what time it was.

Anyway, have some cookies and laundry to finish today and send out this week.

My cheat meal is Taco Soup! YES SOOOOO GOOD! With chips and cheese and sour cream. But I will be working my ass off this week to make sure it doesn't stick around. LOL

Have a great everyone!

Day 29

"Passion, pushing yourself when no one else is around."

That was me this morning, I was tired and sleepy and just pushed myself through my work out. But I did 30 minutes on the elliptical machine and managed 2.73 miles. Pretty good.

I am exhausted, but have to run to the store for a few things.

Hope everyone has a good weekend!

Day 28

"You are just one work out away from a good mood."

Okay this morning was exhausting, I was annoyed in all directions and anticipating some good news. However just have yet to hear anything about this news, so that didn't help my mood.

But I went and worked out for 30 minutes and worked hard! I realized something my only issue now with working out is my shoes. My feet go numb in them after about 10 minutes, and I realize that I need new work out shoes. But my issue with that is, I don't want to spend money on something that won't work. So I really need to do some research on shoes that will be supportive and comfy for me. Might take me a while to find the right pair, but I will get there.

All in all I went and worked out and feel a little better. Still no news, but aside from that I am pretty happy. Shower time and then getting work done around the house. As well as a dozen cookies to send off.

Have a great day everyone!

Day 27!

"Patience. I will become what I know I am!"

I need to learn this virtue, I need to embrace it, I need to become it. As far as fitness is concerned I have no patience. I weigh myself on a almost 3 times a day basis. Why? I am totally addicted. But if this is my only addiction currently, I feel like I am safe at dealing with it for a while.

Today, yes today, I did 30 minutes on the elliptical machine. But wait, there's more, 2.53 miles at my highest speed was 7.1 mph. Okay for me who is used to 25 minutes at a max speed of 4.3 mph....that is freaking impressive. (to me anyway)

And during those 30 minutes I never once thought, "I can't do this, I won't make it." I literally just kept going and at one point started chanting random stuff about bathing suits and summer and looking hot!

All in all I feel really good today. I have a lot on my plate today and am going to get going.

Feel free to leave words of encouragement, I always need them!!!

<3 Everyone!!!

Rest Day

So today is my rest day, and I have to admit I am not thrilled about it. I should go work out.

Yesterday was kind of an overall crummy day throughout the day. Then we received some good news that made the day end on a somewhat high note.

With the kids exhausting all of the life out of me, I just decided to run some errands and maybe pick up some dinner for them. Well we ended up eating at a local BBQ place that I love.

I won't describe my dinner, but it wasn't the best of ideas. I felt like crap leaving the restaurant. My gut felt overwhelmed, my face and hands felt greasy. And I felt this overwhelming guilt for some reason.

Needless to say I was very unhappy for the evening. But I made that mistake and today is a new day. I won't work out, but cleaning my house is always work enough for me. I always seem to come out of it drenched in sweat. (gross I know) But hey it is a small work out one way or another.

I also have some sugar cookies to make and ship to CA this afternoon. So lots of work ahead of me.

Enjoy your day everyone!

Day 25

"No, your legs are not that tired. Yes, you can breathe. Keep going."

Only 25 minutes on the elliptical machine this morning. I woke up in the most severe pain, neck pain, back pain. All from the awkward ways I slept last night. I couldn't fall asleep until 2am and was up and down all night long. Just felt weird last night. I figured I actually went to work out after a long night and being in pain. That is impressive enough.

Have a lot to do today, so I need to get started. But it will be a good day if I can get past this pain. Might take a hot bath to relax my muscles.

Have a great day!

Day 24

"Don't complain about being fat if you are not going to do anything about it!"

This morning I kicked royal ass, not just average ass, but royal ass! My children slept well, I slept well, and was ready to work out and get it going on my work out. I did 28 minutes on the elliptical machine and it felt awesome, I was still working hard up until the very last minute. It was just a good intense work out.

Below is a picture of a female fitness model. In researching her, I have come to realize that her body type is just like me. Except for the obvious differences. Anyway, someday in the very distant future I would like to look, or least feel like I look similar.

Today is all about laundry and cleaning my room and bathroom. Then eating some more healthy foods!!!! Go me!!!!

Day 23

Today is a rest and cheat day

Very very tired, and not feeling 100% up to par. Going to get a lot of laundry and cleaning done today so we can start the week off on the right foot.

My cheat meal for the day is Chicken Curry with Rice. I will still use brown rice, and it has potatoes and carrots. So good!

I have a lot more weight to lose before I hit my goal for the end of March. So this week coming up I am gong to attempt to add weights in at night. And work out for 30 cardio minutes on my work out days. And my eating has got to be spot on. I am going to go to Sam's Club today to get a big pack of desert gum. It is an easy way for me to curb cravings and I don't get a lot of calories for it.

I realize the later I stay up the more likely I am to snack on all sorts of things. So I am going to also try to get to bed at a somewhat decent time. Also getting a measuring tape today, I would actually like to keep track of my measurements from now on.

Anyway, that is all for now. Hope everyone has a great day!

Day 22

"If you have time to facebook, you have time to work out!"

Oh dear God, how true is this! I used to say all the time that I never have time and that it is hard. I mean don't get me wrong, it is hard. Very hard. But I have time to plop my fat ass on a chair and mess around on facebook for a significant amount of time. I have time to ask my husband to watch my children for 25-30 minutes while I work out.

I did only 25 minutes today for a multitude of reasons. I have a GIANT list of things to get done today.

Yesterday, well yesterday was int the past. What happened yesterday shouldn't affect my ability to do my workout today, or eat healthy.

On pinterest this last week I saw a picture that really spoke to me. It is very significant to me because it shows what my body looks inside and what I am doing to my joints and bones and muscles.

Check it out here!

I will look good, I will be happy and I will be comfortable in my own skin damn it! This time next year I won't be unhappy that I didn't do anything. I will be so ecstatic that I got off my ass got into shape!

I CAN DO THIS, I WILL DO THIS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Day 20

"Sweat is fat crying!"

Wasn't sure how this morning would go. Long night. But I did 28 minutes on the elliptical and it felt great afterwards. I am going to slowly work up to 30 minutes and then stick to the time for a while.

Today is just a crazy day and I don't have a ton to talk about. Just hoping it goes by well and I am able to get to tomorrow just fine.

Day 19 - Rest Day

I know you might think I missed entering info today, but I didn't.

Today is my rest day.

And for a rest day it was crazy busy!!!! Rya had class, I had group and then she had her evaluation to see what preschool programs she qualifies for. That took forever! I know she will qualify for them since she is so low still on her abilities. I mean she is very advanced/high functioning for her disability. But she still needs a lot of help!

Anyway, since it was so crazy I totally forgot to eat breakfast and didn't get around to lunch until probably 3:00pm! I know that is bad for a healthy lifestyle, but sometimes that is a part of life as a mom.

Best part of today, made some strawberry lemonade cupcakes for my group. I didn't have one of them. (I am not a huge fan of cake, even though I do it for a living. But these are awesome!) Then we went to McDonalds for the kids dinner because we had a lot of errands to run. We got them nugget meals and hubby got a drink and cheeseburger. And me? Why I didn't get anything!

YAY! McDonalds is one of my big weaknesses! So that is a celebratory thing for me.

Tomorrow back on the workout wagon until Sunday, my next rest day!

Thanks for reading! Remember encouraging words are always welcome!

Day 18

"Make your supports proud and your haters jealous!"

I don't think I am cool enough to have haters. HA! But I know I have supporters and I am hoping I make them proud of me.

Today was pretty easy to be honest. I did get a late start because of two children who decided to scream until 3am. So after both parents were able to get some rest, went to the gym.

Now last night amidst my fight with my screaming children, I slammed my little toe into the wall. 99.9% sure it is broken. Has a weird red purple bruise filling in nicely as well as some lovely swelling. However I didn't let that stop me. I figured I would go to the gym and if I couldn't do the elliptical machine then I would do the bike. But all 27 minutes on the elliptical and sure seemed easy this time. It might have helped that I was watching the combine on ESPN and got to see Rich Eisen run the 40. HA!

Anyway feeling pretty good about today so far. Lunch a chicken salad and dinner, chicken, brown rice and veggies.

Way to go me!

Day 17

"It never get easier, you just get better at it!"

Today is a good day. (Or I thought it was, as we speak both of my children are screaming at me.)

Anyway, got up and went to work out. About 10 minutes into it I was super tired! (I slept terrible last night) And my mind kept saying, you have done so well, you can just stop now. Then I decided to tell myself to shut up. I just shut that part of my brain up...got lost in Will & Grace and ignored that part of my brain. The next thing I knew, I was done! 27 minutes later and I felt great.

I have so much to do today and know I can get it all done. Just need to buckle down and get on it!

Thanks for reading! However if you are reading this, please feel free to leave me a comment. I really need and love getting words of encouragement. It helps me progress forward and keep at it.

Cheat Night

Tonight was my cheat meal...I was totally planning on making taco soup. Sadly the kids were getting a little exhausting and needed to get out of the house. When I realized that we were in the car in another town and it was dinner time.

So we went to Texas Roadhouse. If given the opportunity I would eat well made steak everyday for the remainder of my days.

My old normal steakhouse routine:

Couple of alcoholic drinks/sodas

Appetizer/salad with a ton of dressing

Rolls with honey butter

More drinks

Steak, rare, 8-16oz (with all of it eaten) or Prime Rib, (as large as I can get)

French fries or potatoes for a side and maybe a veggie (loaded)

Yuck, reading that makes me kind of sick.

This cheat meal routine:

Water, LOTS of water

11oz Sirlion, rare (under half eaten, brought home for Jon to eat at breakfast)

Half mashed potatoes (plain, no gravy, cheese, butter, nothing)

I ordered green beans, but they brought them with all sorts of stuff on it. Bacon, butter, tons of salt and floating in some sort of liquid. I decided that since I didn't know what it as, I would just avoid it.

Now here is where my *over done it* cheat came to play....

Rolls. And. Honey. Butter.

Okay okay, I had two of them, they were sooooooo good! I figured I would just enjoy myself since I really have been dong as well as I would like myself to currently. And I did...I sure did.

But so happy I didn't have anything else to drink but water. I love water, cold and so refreshing! I have not had a pop/soda in over 2 weeks! This is an impressive step for me! And I will admit it, I am proud of myself.

Anyway, not a terrible cheat and not a diet meal. Just sort of in the middle.

Night!!!!

Day 16

"Good habits are as addictive as bad habits, and a lot more rewarding!"

Today is my rest day/cheat meal day. So I didn't get up and go work out so far. Even though in all honesty I kind of wanted to. Not so much to work out, but to be able to check out for 30 minutes. But I know if I did that I would burn out like I have in the past. But tomorrow I really think I am going to actually add a second work out. Not sure if it will be lifting weights or just cardio again. Either way, I think it will be good for me to get something done at night.

I am still on my way to my goal for the end of the month. I would really like to be down another 10 lbs before I leave for Idaho Falls. I can do it! I can do it! I can do it!

Hope everyone has a wonderful Sunday!!!

Day 15

"You can have results or you can have excuses. You can't have both."

Halfway through my workout this morning I thought of a million reasons to stop. I have a lot to get done today, needed to get going. I have done so well lately, it wouldn't be bad if I stopped. My feet hurt, neck hurt, back hurt...all that junk. However, for the first time in my life, (sad I know) I kept at it. I started chanting "You can do it!" over and over. Luckily I work out in our community center and usually I am the only one there when I am working out.

So I finished 27 minutes on the elliptical machine. Which is what I set the timer for anyway, so I finished it!

Today we *do* have a lot to do, so it is important that I stick to my healthy eating. Small steaks for dinner. Lunch will be the hard part for me since we will be in Park City.

So have a great day everyone!!!

*EDIT*

We went to McDonalds for lunch today because we had to meet up with someone. I had a grilled chicken salad, water and a ranch packet that I dipped my fork into. Instead of covering the salad like I used to!

FAIL

But it is okay....had a terrible morning.

Decided to stop potty training my daughter today based on a conversation I had with one of her special therapy doctors. The doing all there other crazy stuff that mom's do for their families in a day. It was just overwhelming and exhausting. So I forced my husband, (Jon) to take me to lunch.

I was planning on a healthy location, (well as healthy as eating out can get) a placed called Zupas. Soups, salads and sandwiches. But it was packed! So we headed to Chili's.

I know, I know. Gross.

Pretty sure I consumed about a month worth of salt in the chips and queso. I had their shrimp tacos. Not the worst thing to eat there, but not the best in the world either. I drank water I brought and ate two of the tacos. I have one left over for a snack if I get hungry. :) Since I won't be hungry for actual dinner.

But like I have said in the (very recent) past, just because I failed now, doesn't mean I will fail tomorrow. So here goes nothing...

Day 14

"You can feel sore tomorrow, or you can feel sorry tomorrow. You choose"

Today was a little harder this morning working out. But I finished the 25 minutes, looking forward to Sunday for my rest day!

Today I woke up with a feeling that most females call, "skinny day". That day when you are not bloated and you just feel good. You feel a tiny bit smaller than the day before. I LOVE those days!

Feeling good and feeling stronger. I am getting there, one day at a time and one pound at a time!

Long day ahead of me with a lot to do!

(Remember all the helpful words I can get the better! I need them!)

Day 13

"If you don't work for it, you probably don't deserve it."

Oh so true. I worked for my fattness...I ate junk food and drank a lot of sugar! I earned that extra weight. Now I have to earn the body I want to have.

Went to the gym today and did 25 minutes on the elliptical machine. There were a few moments where I thought I would give up before the 25 minutes was done. I kept telling myself I only had time left and I could do it. So I finished, and was very proud of myself.

Had some yogurt for breakfast and lunch will be a salad with shrimp. (SO GOOD) Then dinner will be chicken, veggies and brown rice.

Cajun Chicken Pasta on the Lighter Side

Although I have not tired her food that much, it all looks amazing! This is something I am wanting to try when I reach my first weight loss goal:

Cajun Chicken Pasta

Day 11

"How many times have you tried to lose weight? If you wouldn't

have quit, you'd already be at your goal weight!"

With the amount of times I have started and stopped I would have a freaking 8 pack by now! This time I have to keep at it. I went through a phase where I lost 20lbs and was doing all the right things. And then I got super super sick and fell off the wagon in a way. I can only imagine where I would be now if I would have just jumped back on the wagon after I got healthy. But I can't really play the what-if game, just need to focus on the now.

My goal: Wear a pencil skirt the way it was intended to be worn. I own a couple of them. Just don't wear them how they were meant to be worn. I will get there damn it!

Went grocery shopping for two weeks yesterday. Lots of brown rice and chicken and shrimp. With two cheat meals, taco soup and curry chicken on Sundays. And let me say I will enjoy those!

Thanks for reading, and remember words of encouragement and advice are invited. I need as much support as I can get!

Day 8

So day 7 was a fail, but that is okay. Today was a check so far....have not had lunch yet so need to get on that.

Otherwise adding in weights tonight and then some protein after that.

Sorry so quick, don't have a ton of time!!!

Cheat Night

Okay so it is cheat night right now, homemade burgers and potatoes. Also we have game night tonight and we are having some chips. But since I felt like I chowed down on burgers too much I would just leave the chips out.

We will see....ugg this is so stressful!

Day 6

"Suck it up and someday you won't have to suck it in!"

Oh man, can I tell you how much I needed that statement this morning. After day two of a 5:30 wake up call fro my son, my energy level was beyond low. But I eventually got out there and did my 25, (yes only 25 minutes today) minutes. I had to repeat this mantra in my mind while on the elliptical machine so I wouldn't give up before the 25 minutes.

Since I know I will reach my goal of 10lbs before March 31st for the baby shower. I want to step it up a little. If I reach 20lbs by then, I will allow myself the whole weekend I am down there off my "diet"! WOOO-HOOO! My littler sister and I are planning the baby shower, so I know what food will be there!!!

Yippeee! Got to run and get my errands done! Have a fantastic day everyone!

Cilantro Lime Shrimp

I decided to add recipes that I find that I enjoy and are healthy for you! We love seafood in this house and so I discovered this dish Cilantro Lime Chicken! It was amazing!

Actually making it again tonight since we enjoyed it so much.

Give it a try!

Day 5

"Six months from now you won't remember how those cookies tasted. But six months from now you will be able to see results!"

Okay I need to either tattoo this on my arm or just adapt it as my new mantra. Yesterday being Valentine's Day I believe we all see it as "sweets day". I have to be happy that I am not a huge sweets fan or baked goods. (I know, I know, I make designer cakes for a living, weird.) But for me my sweet tooth isn't that big at all, if really there. I think my favorite sweets are fruit. But I do love salt water taffy. With that being said I was at the grocery store yesterday with my family. On my way to the register I grabbed a white paper bag and stuffed a few handfuls of salt water taffy into the bag. As I got to the register it dawned on me what I was actually doing. So with that I put the bag on some random shelf by the register, and proceeded to check out.

YAY for me! While this may seem trivial to everyone else, this was/is a huge triumph for me. And last night I found myself dying for anything. I was so munchie!!! I wanted a sandwich, nothing fancy, two slices of bread, mayo and some thin slices of lunch meat. It haunted me....but I had an orange instead. Another huge step for me!!!

Well today is my rest day, so already starting on a weird step. I realize it has only been a few days of working out. But I take it as a good sign when it feels strange to not head to the gym this morning. (Doesn't help that my son was up at 5:30am and then shortly after my daughter.) Tomorrow we incorporate weights at night. Time to do some research on what is best to do for my body. Then we will go form there.

Thanks for stopping by, and remember words of encouragement are highly encouraged! (Ha! Did you see what I did there? Yeah.....maybe I should go back to bed.)

Day 4

"Never give up on something you can't go a day without thinking about!"

Oh my goodness does this speak volumes to me! I literally think every day, almost every second about how unhappy I am with my body! I hate that I wear a t-shirt and jeans all the time, and a sweatshirt every time I go out. In a simple, yet obvious attempt at hiding my current shape. I would eat because I was unhappy, it was all a sick vicious cycle.

But I am so done with that! I will achieve my goal, I will fit into my goal outfit. I will be able to wear the Victoria's Secret bathing suit I bought. (not this summer, but next maybe) I will not be ashamed and wear cute clothes out and about. I deserve this!

If I keep telling myself I can do this and this quote above I will be successful.

This morning I did 30 minutes total. 10 minutes on the treadmill and 20 on the elliptical! 5 minute improvement. Tomorrow is my rest day, but Thursday I will be adding weights on at night. I need to do some research on this so I make sure I am doing it correct. I don't want to just be skinnier, I want to be toned and look good!!!

And remember, encouraging words are helpful and important to me!

Day 3

"I may not be there yet, but I'm closer than I was yesterday!"

Man don't I know it! Day 3 of working out everyday and already feeling a change. Maybe it is just in my attitude and energy level, but I will take it.

I don't seem to be having soda/pop issues at all. I think because I am so busy during the day that it isn't a thought that really crosses my mind. And no fast food issues, mostly because I just have not had time either. But I feel strong and positive that when/if I face that factor I can beat it down.

Scale wise? Hrm, let's just say that of all my addictions I find this to be the least bad one not be able to let go. I realize weighing myself everyday, (okay probably a couple of time) is pretty much an inevitable let down. But at least I know this right? I am working on it.

I am thinking I need at least one rest day this week, or at least once a week. Figured it could be Wednesdays. Then in a week or sooner I will incorporate weights. Not a lot, since I am still starting out slow. I will cardio mornings and weights at nights.

I will be at least 10 lbs down by the time I go to Idaho Falls to see family for a baby shower. I am determined to do this. End of March is my deadline for that 10 lbs. Then I can at least take that shower day and enjoy the stuff that we will be making for the shower. That will be my reward for the 10lbs. Then after that, back to the plan.

So far anyway, I feel good and feel motivated. Time to get some work done around my house.

Please feel free to leave me a comment, I really need the encouragement!

Day 2

"Stop competing with others and start competing with yourself."

This is sooo true. I have to stop comparing myself and my abilities to other people. Especially people who look far better than my current physical state.

My three current demons are Fast Food, The Scale and Pop/Soda. And when combined they make a sometimes fatal, (to my pour soul) combo. So I plan on weighing myself on Saturdays and Saturdays only. (We will see how that goes, and no hiding the scale doesn't work for me)
Fast Food, well just don't eat it, ask my family to avoid it as well. Which saves us money and calories.

Pop/Soda, if I don't purchase it, I can't drink it. I do currently have a couple of dying 2 liters in my fridge. And when I get one of *those* headaches I will just pop and Excedrin and take a sip of that.

All in all I feel like I just got to keep at it. When I get more organized and so forth, I plan on using fitday.com to track calories and work outs.

Thanks for stopping by, please leave a word or two of encouragement if you can!!! Thanks!!!

Day 1

"No matter how slow you go, you are still lapping everyone on the couch!"

That is going to be my inspiration for my day and coming week. I stepped on the scale last night and was about to die/cry from the sheer disappointment I have in myself for the number that appeared.

So there isn't much to say aside from the fact that I have to change. Period, end of statement.

So today I went to the "gym" this morning, (our community work out center) and did 25 minutes on the elliptical machine. Which for me is a step in the right direction. I have to start somewhere. Eventually I will get around to posting about food. But for me I realized it really is a day at a time. And this time next year I don't want to be 20 pounds heavier and wishing I did something last year.

So I am off for my day and hopefully tomorrow will be a little bit easier.